Dima's Friends

01:50am 04/07/2008

music: The Album Leaf - One Minute

Kon said it was "weird" but I think that Knockaround Guys was fucking cool.

no subject

02:06pm 03/07/2008

music: The Album Leaf - Seal beach

Size matters....for London dispersion forces.

Inferno::Canto I

10:55am 03/07/2008

mood:

tired

music: Stereolab::Young Lungs

Yesterday Spencer said that I was the nicest person he knows. I had such a burst of happiness in that moment, I felt as if my heart grew an inch.

Orientation in 25 days and I still haven't found a job, Jesus.

Also, http://flashificator.com/1/BlueMoon/Buffet/Buffet.html
I'm going to buy a bathing suit today and in the meantime dropping something off for my friend. How is this going to work? Who knows really?

no subject

12:52am 03/07/2008

music: The Album Leaf - Gust of...

Mayya & I spent all of last night in the BC Library Cafe studying. It was hell, wicked, evil hell.
Toward the morning, I received an email from Lenny, with some attachment that I couldn't open [using macs, for me, impossible] & I emailed him back [3am? 4am?] and we had a back-and-forth conversation about how he thinks he sent me the fourth exam - - which he didn't, but we flipped anyway.

Lev & I went to Marine Park with Rem after I got out of chem and chilled in the grass on the dog blanket. Then we played with all the dogs in the field.

Parents are leaving for the weekend to the Poconos...every part of me wants to go with them, but the remaining logical parts of my mind scream YOU HAVE AN EXAM NEXT WEEK - - A FINAL EXAM SHIT FUCK.

Brian, wherever you are, I'm thinking of you.

Garage Sale on West Center St this weekend!

sunynewpaltz - (misfitmanda)

01:55pm 02/07/2008

Hey everyone,

We are having another garage sale this weekend, with even more stuff. 3 - 4 houses and possible more worth of stuff. So if you didn't make it last weekend stop by!

I will also be selling handmade items for less than I sell them on etsy.com and at the Rosendale St Fest so come and get something for less while you have the chance!

Sat. and Sun 10am - 5pm

Contact me if you need directions!

Weather: If it rains all day we will cancel for the day. if it just sprinkles a bit here and there, we will continue selling.

Garage Sale at West Center St this weekend!

newpaltzjunkies - (misfitmanda)

01:51pm 02/07/2008

Mozilla add-ons

11:09am 02/07/2008

mood:

uncomfortable

music: No Doubt::Spiderwebs

I think we'll take a positive and active role in determining the direction technology goes in, not just sit on the beach and have machines serve us martinis.
-Marvin Minsky

I'm doing too many crazy things. My body is going to suffer very soon, and that scares me. I want to go clean for a while, at least a month to see how it goes. However, I've already made a date to candyflip next weekend. Therefore, I must wait until after that happens. Life is a crazy thing, and I like it. I just don't want to get caught up, which is where I'm headed. Therefore, I want to stop. Just for a little while. I can't believe I'm saying this, but whatever.

I'm starting to get a little uncomfortable with everything that's happening. I don't know why, but the feeling is definitely there. I'm getting uncomfortable.

Whatever, I just want to move into my dorm room already. Brianna is at orientation, and mine is a month away. I want to get this all over with so I can lie in my bed whenever I like and say whatever my mind desires. I hate lying.

"No pleasure is a bad thing in itself"
-EPICURUS, I feel ya'.

no subject

05:41pm 01/07/2008

I just got back from a urologist and I 100% dont have cancer, so thats always good news. Im going back for an ultrasound on thursday.

Yesterday me, jared, bryan, kat and elton went to the muddy cup open mic. Me and jared played Take My Picture by Filter and then i played a fall of troy medley. Twas good.

Tonight me and some people are going to go see Wal-E or however you spell it.

---

I wanted to write about happiness because jay's post got me thinking about a lot of the stuff I've studied before. Happiness is a HUGE topic in psychology. There has been a ton of research on it, and there's a journal dedicated solely to the topic.

I've always been interested in it, probably because I was pretty unhappy growing up so I turned to studying it to try to figure myself out etc. I feel like my teenage angst is written ALL over me, i.e. i come off as a pretty unhappy person even though Im not. For a few years about once every month somebody would say to me "why do you look so depressed/sad all the time?" It totally bugged me because I would be like "um... im not..." I think its just a remnant of how i grew up. The same way i can come off as unemotional or unaffected. Its something im moving away from, i think.

Anyways, as i actually made real progress and became a more mature/well-rounded dude, i no longer got the comments about how sad i looked all the time. Nowadays i have this phenomenom where people will be like "i thought you hated me when i first met you..." Which I guess is better and a sign that im heading in the right direction....

enough about my emo life...

A lot of the happiness research that I am familiar with is correlations, like-> are richer people happier? Basically they survey people and various aspects of their lives and see if it is related to how happy they are.

There are a few basic findings that I think are really significant and important.

1) Once you get above the poverty line, wealth DOES NOT correlate to happiness.
In other words, once you are at the point where you can afford to eat and live indoors, how much money you make doesn't so much affect your well being. Last I read it was something like a 1% relationship.
The movie/book fight club has a lot to say about consumerism in modern society and how it has largely morphed into a bad thing. We are on a "hedonic treadmill." We all want just a LITTLE bit more. We want to be just a LITTLE richer, just a LITTLE more good looking, just a LITTLE BETTER. And then, we actually get a little better and we feel good about it for a while. THEN, we acclimate to our current conditions and get back on the cycle of wanting everything to be a LITTLE better. That is one reason why wealth doesn't affect happiness (factoid: lottery winners return to their previous level of happiness one year after winning)
Another reason is that STUFF can't FULFILL you, NOR get you laid despite what advertising says. But that's a whole 'nother story.

2) The biggest factor in determining somebodies hapiness is how SOCIALLY CONNECTED they are.
This is a fact of biology, and it immutable and it doesnt matter what anybody says because this is some true shit and it is CORRECT: happiness is most dependant on a persons SOCIAL BONDS and their sense of having a "place" in the community. By that i mean if you feel like you are an important part of your social group, and you are very connected to your friends, you will be happier. There's plenty of good evolutionary psychology reasons for this that i wont go into.
It is vexing man. In American society you grow up with these values instilled into you like "establish goals. make money. work your job. save the world etc" And then you realize its as simple as FRIENDS + OUTGOING = HAPPY. Its like -whats the point?-
In middle school/high school/now when you finish up the school year you think "finally i can relax. it will be so nice to be away from school..." Then after like a month you sorta wanna go back to school, because that's where your little community is.
I guess im writing this to point out that -everybody- feels this way. When you feel sad/depressed you can find a million little reasons why but it usually boils down to social connectedness.

I didn't outline this before writing it so its a bit all over the place and i have to go soon. I don't remember the main point of why i wrote this but if you guys are interested in this kinda stuff i like talking about it.

one more thing ill point out is, achieving goals and being a well accomplished person is AWESOME. Even if it doesnt translate into tangible relationships, it is cool in its OWN RIGHT. This is a really deep topic. Ill probably write more about this stuff later.

-Dan

Its been a looonnnggg.....Time Commin

musicislove1967

10:02am 01/07/2008

Hiya Everyone!

I have realized that I have dropped off the face of the earth in regards to posts, and I felt the need to remedy that situation. I didn't have really much to say, but I think ive compiled enough to create a post here. I ensure u all that I have been reading everyone's, and Its super great feeling like I know whats going on with y'all

ANYWAYS....

My job has gone full-time starting in roughly an hour, so now I will begin to make money, well some that is. Im pretty sure I failed Stats I, it was the hardest course ive ever taken, shoved at u in 4 weeks. Im not going to be the only one, so I don't necessarily feel dumb. If you knew my professor, or just the statistics department in the business building, u would understand a little better. I know Jeff knows, I think he failed it the first time as well. Correct me if im wrong jeffers. But yeah, the reason I wont make too much money is that my mom wants me to pay for it if i failed it, thus, im 700 dollars in the hole right now....not cool : (

On a lighter note, I have been in New Paltz close to everyday. I just can't leave it to be honest. Im having so much fun with everyone, it really feels like family there (and im spending more time with that family then my true one actually, lol). Bryan's GF Kat is visiting from Maryland and her addition has been fabulous. She is just a real awesome person: Cooking everything from cookies to chicken dinners for us, teaching us little bits of sign language, and just being a fun person in general. My apartment is starting to shape up slowly, I have practically everything in my room now except my bed and clothes, so that is a good feeling "moving in" day won't really be much of a hastle at all, one car trip should do it : )

I went to the recent party @ Dima and Danny's new house, which I dub "The 201". Ive partied at there in the past with its prior residents, but the new ones give them a run for their money. It was a good time, lots of familiar faces mixed in with beardo's, but what house party in New Paltz doesn't attract them? Something good that came out of it was that Eileen (who practically lives there now, because of Abe) might have found me a sublet, which is pretty good I guess. It will be like 1100 dollars saved, maybe a little less, but who cares?

Dave and our upstairs neighbors all moved out last week, so its pretty quiet now around our place. There is a funny story I do have to tell about him tho. Dave started selling/giving us things for our apartment when he started moving out. At one point he summoned us upstairs because he had a few things he was willing to part way with. So he shows us this bar chair (it had a back, making it a chair, not a stool) and he was asking us if we wanted it, we didnt have a need, so we refused. Dave then said uttered this sentense: "Like yo, im not even talking money here.........Im talking chairs dude." If you know dave, and add all his mannerisms to that sentense, you would be laughing right now.

Speaking of Dave actually...Dan and I went and got our library cards for Elting Library, because its like a 2 minute walk and because of dave leaving, they shut off the wifi we were stealing from them, as well as the cable : ( But Dave works at the library, and he gave us our cards that grant us internet access. Dave givith and taketh away I guess. they have a decent DVD collection there. I would honestly invest in a card there, for a investment of nothing. They have decent titles and u keep them out for a week. Not too bad IMO.

Alright kids, I need to stop this post here, I have yet to eat breakfest and I need to be in work by 11, so thanks for reading. If something worth telling pops up, ill let y'all know about it

Peace, Love, and all that jazz : P

-J

heyo

xolthamus

12:51am 01/07/2008

music: three birds

Hey guys. i decided to post because things were pretty awful last month and i believe everything has taken a turn for Awesome. ive been reading everything i can that you guys post, so keep i coming, i miss the lot of you. you guys really have been making my bad days tolerable. So, my camp councilor job finally started today and i cant tell you how much playing capture the flag and "don't touch the rocks tag" with 2nd graders made me feel revitalized. The kids literally just wash away all the bad stuff. and for 3 hours they look up to me as the coolest being on the planet. It isn't a power trip (usually) i genuinely like being a good, energetic role model for these kids. This is my 7th year at the camp. wow... i started when i was 14. i have literally seen a class go from kindergarten and graduate into middle school. one of the new councilors this year was in my group a few years back. somehow Summer fun has created an amazing community group. the kids always get testy when they hit 5th and 6th grades. the way to get through to them isn't to command respect, but to deserve it. i'm not really sure where i'm going with this

So after work today i felt better than i have since leaving college. with this new wind in my sails, i went out job hunting so i can finally quit working at the hampton bays movie theater. this job has been a large part of my (for lack of a better word) depression recently. i wasn't really super depressed, but i just felt trapped. anywho i went to a bunch of places and had my resume accepted in two different places! i can quit!! i basically put in my 2 weeks notice today!!! YESSS!!!!! such a great day.

then i played football with rachel for a half hour, had dinner with the fam, and went out to the movies with two of my best friends. the lattanzio twins have been my friends since pre school. they are the most genuinely amazing people i have ever met. They both work at a fancy restaurant owned by their family. so on a normal day i can only get one of them to hang with. but today i got to take both of them to see kung fu panda. and they loved it! and rachel came too!!

i really couldn't have asked for a better day. i dont wanna jinx anything, but i think this might be the end of "one of those" months. I even got to see evan yesterday!

finally i saw that you cool cats were posting this survey thing soooo here you go im posting it in the next post

(3 Straight-Edge Kids | Don't Smoke Pot)

no subject

07:49pm 30/06/2008

I have here, a list compiled, of the car companies and the models that they have contributed to the Anal game. For those of you who do not know the Anal game, here is a brief overview: When bored, or just walking about, or doing anything at all, take the model (or make) of the car and put the word “anal” in front of it. Step two: Enjoy.

Acura:
Anal Legend

Buick:
Anal Rendezvous

Chevrolet:
Anal Avalanche
Anal Blazer
Anal Celebrity
Anal Equinox
Anal Venture

Chrysler:
Anal Prowler
Anal Voyager

Dodge:
Anal Avenger
Anal Charger
Anal Dynasty
Anal Viper

Ford:
Anal Club Wagon
Anal Edge
Anal Escort
Anal Expedition
Anal Explorer
Anal Focus
Anal Probe

GMC:
Anal Canyon

Honda:
Anal Fit
Anal Insight
Anal Odyssey
Anal Pilot
Anal Prelude

Hyundai:
Anal Accent
Anal Entourage

Isuzu:
Anal Amigo
Anal Ascender
Anal Impulse
Anal Rodeo
Anal Trooper

Jeep:
Anal Commander
Anal Compass
Anal Liberty
Anal Wrangler

Land Rover:
Anal Discovery

Lincoln:
Anal Aviator
Anal Navigator

Mazda:
Anal Tribute

Mercury:
Anal Mystique

Mitsubishi:
Anal Eclipse
Anal Mirage

Nissan:
Anal Quest
Anal Titan

Pontiac:
Anal Vibe

Subaru:
Anal Legacy

Toyota:
Anal Echo
Anal Tundra

The FORD car company wins for two reasons: One, being that they have the most funny combinations that I’ve come upon so far, and, two, because of Anal Probe. I mean, come on. This game had to have been invented because of this car.
If there are any disputes about the winner or if you know of any that I’ve missed, please feel free to include commentary!

survey

yourlilange

01:18am 30/06/2008

Question #1: Are you a morning or night person?

haha everyone knows that answer

Question #2: Which do you prefer, sweet or salty foods?

both...chocolate covered pretzels are the best...ooohhh and potato chips dipped in chocolate ice cream is even better :)

Question #3: Ninjas or pirates?

PIRATES MOTHERFUCKER!!!

Question #4: Ninjas vs pirates, discuss.

umm hello every pirates movie ever made is the shit...yeah that include the porno AND pirates 3 which was not all that confusing!!!

Question #5: Autobots or Decepticons?

Shia LaBeouf

Question #6: What was your favorite childhood television program?

sesame street

Question #7: Are you a collector of anything?

everything...margarita glasses, old souveniers from different experiences, my favorite movies, pictures, shoes

Question #8: If you could be any animal, what would you be?

a mermaid

Question #9: If you could have any superpower, what would it be?

i really like invisibility...i could stalk so many people that way and get into awesome events

Question #10: What is usually your first thought when you wake up?

more sleep...no work

Question #11: What do you usually think about right before falling asleep?

i try to envision myself in an exciting situation im about to be involved in the upcoming days

Question #12: What's your favorite color?

i think brown and no not for shits...i think its the best color on me

Question #13: What's your favorite animal?

i think a chipmunk...im not sure why

Question #14: Do you believe in extraterrestrials or life on other planets?

yeah i think so...i mean i replicate my own crop circles in pubes haha

Question #15: Do you believe in ghosts?

i think so

Question #16: Ever been addicted to a video/computer game? Which one(s)?

haha yes...um almost any game i start to play especially kingdom hearts but also things like diner dash, mario kart, and alot of adventure games like mario and donkey kong 64

Question #17: You're given 1 million dollars, what do you spend it on?

a house and unfortunately thats about it bcz houses are damn expensive but if anything was left over I guess a new car, a vacation, and some brand new technological gadgets...after that i would save

Question #18: Have any bad habits?

being too negative, bitting my nails, picking at my toenails, chewing on my tongue, indecisiveness

Question #19: Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy?

ironically indecisiveness

Question #20: List 3 of your best personality traits:

I guess I'm outgoing, entertaining, and funny

Question #21: List 3 of your worst personality traits:

always unsatisfied and picky, indecisive, and easily aggrivated...oh and too negative hence why there are more worst personality traits then asked for lol

Question #22: Have any celebrity crushes?

umm yeah Shia, Keira, James Franco

Question #23: List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself:

i would be sexy haha always been a little jealous of those skanky whores

Question #24: Any tattoos or piercings?

ears pierced...tattoo maybe one day

Question #25: What's the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?

rediculously good looking haha no not really i guess smile

Question #26: What personality traits do you look for in a partner?

sense of humor, similar taste in things, outgoing, spontaneous, take charge

Question #27: What personality traits do you dislike in other people?

liars, phony-ness, stupidity and ignorance, followers, selfish, shallow, basically people in general

Question #28: Are you mostly a clean or messy person?Do you see yourself getting married in the next 5 years?

yes...to whom? we shall see whats in the cards...;)

Question #29: Are you mostly a clean or messy person?

MESSY

Question #30: If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

in my own apartment/condo/house far enough away so parents couldnt visit but close enough to visit if i need to

Question #31: If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would you go?

any tropical place with the sand in my toes and sun to lay in

Question #32: List 5 goals on your life's to-do list:

BE SATISFIED....that really encompasses everything...if I can finally be satisfied I'll be happy

Question #33: Name 1 regret you have:

not ending things with someone when i should have bcz that cause a good 6 months of problems that could have been bypassed

Question #34: Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid:

not having a care in the world

Question #35: Name 1 thing you love about being an adult:

somewhat having money and freedom

Question #36: What's your favorite song of the moment?

i dont have one right now

Question #37: What's your favorite song of all time?

i'm not quite sure i can pick one

Question #38: What's your favorite thing to do on a Saturday night?

get dressed up and actually do something with good friends...probably dance...i really want to dance right now

Question #39: What's your favorite thing to do on a Sunday afternoon?

sleep

Question #40: Have any hidden talents?

i'm amazing a sucking dick....HAHAHAH just kidding...that would be funny though...i guess it would be that I can dance like MC Hammer haha

Question #41: You're about to walk the green mile, what do you have as your last meal?

a kind of sampler platter that i concocted with a white castle burger, a taco bell taco, boston market apples, mac and cheese, and mashed potatos, ribs and baked beans from famous daves, oh and salmon

Question #42: What would be your dream job?

i dono being a celebrity i guess

Question #43: Which would you rather have, 100 million dollars or true love?

true love

Question #44: If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be?

to be satisfied with myself and life however that can happen...but i'd like to be in love and have enough money to be well off enough, oh and to find a job i actually like

Question #45: Ever wish you were born the opposite sex? If so, why?

yeah all the time especially when I'm bleeding or itching from the vagina

Question #46: Name 1 thing not many people know about you:

i think people think im confident but im extremely insecure and give too much of a shit about what people think (well only people who matter to me)

Question #47: If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to?

princess consuela banana hammock

Question #48: Do you believe in the afterlife?

definitely...even though im going to hell i think the idea of eternal happiness helps me keep going and not worry about death

Question #49: On the topic of abortion, how do you feel about cookies?

hmm i love me some cookies after my abortions

Survey

dropz0ne

12:36am 30/06/2008

50 Questions To Really Get To Know Someone
1) Are you a morning or night person? Night
2) Which do you prefer, sweet or salty foods? Sweet
3) Ninjas or pirates? Pirates
4) Ninjas vs pirates, discuss. I think it would be an epic showdown of cultures
5) Autobots or Decepticons? Autobots
6) What was your favorite childhood television program? Salute Your Shorts
7) Are you a collector of anything? Baseball Cards
8) If you could be any animal, what would you be? Dolphin
9) If you could have any superpower, what would it be? X-ray Vision
10) What is usually your first thought when you wake up? Can I have 5 more minutes.
11) What do you usually think about right before falling asleep? Usually damn it i have work in the morning
12) What's your favorite color? Blue
13) What's your favorite animal? Elephant
14) Do you believe in extraterrestrials or life on other planets? Sure why not there has to be something watching us
15) Do you believe in ghosts? Ghost Hunters made me believe
16) Ever been addicted to a video/computer game? Which one(s)? Yes World Of Warcraft/ Counterstrike/ TFC
17) You're given 1 million dollars, what do you spend it on? I would spend it on a nice car and house and put the remaining money into an account.
18) Have any bad habits? -
19) Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy? -
20) List 3 of your best personality traits: Humurous... ummm
21) List 3 of your worst personality traits: Depenedent on others at times, Procrastinator, Smartass
22) Have any celebrity crushes? Johnny Depp, Keira Knightley, Meagan Fox
23) List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself: Dependency
24) Any tattoos or piercings? 1 Tattoo
25) What's the first thing you notice in the opposite sex? Eyes
26) What personality traits do you look for in a partner? Sense of Humor, Smart, Fun, Energetic
27) What personality traits do you dislike in other people? -
28) Are you mostly a clean or messy person?Do you see yourself getting married in the next 5 years? Im definately somewhere in the middle. Umm i have no idea.
29) Are you mostly a clean or messy person? In the Middle
30) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Somewhere on a Caribbean Island
31) If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would you go? Japan
32) List 5 goals on your life's to-do list: I havent decided anything yet.
33) Name 1 regret you have: Not playing baseball
34) Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid: Being able to live life care free
35) Name 1 thing you love about being an adult: None
36) What's your favorite song of the moment? Love today
37) What's your favorite song of all time? -
38) What's your favorite thing to do on a Saturday night? Hang out with my friends.
39) What's your favorite thing to do on a Sunday afternoon? Relax becasue I know work is tomorrow
40) Have any hidden talents? Video Game extrodinare
41) You're about to walk the green mile, what do you have as your last meal? 5LB steak
42) What would be your dream job? Baseball Player
43) Which would you rather have, 100 million dollars or true love? can't i have both?
44) If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be? Money, Love ,Happiness
45) Ever wish you were born the opposite sex? If so, why? Yes, So i could look at myself in the mirror naked.
46) Name 1 thing not many people know about you: -
47) If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? -
48) Do you believe in the afterlife? I will find out someday.
49) On the topic of abortion, how do you feel about cookies? Cookies are good. I love Cookies.
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terrifying day yesterday

02:33pm 29/06/2008

so two nights ago i was feeling my balls, and i noticed a lump. this scared the shit outta me, so yesterday i went to go see a doctor. It turns out it is probably a cyst, and it is very very unlikely that I have cancer.

That being said I was shitting my pants for like 8 hours.

I might have to get surgery to get the cyst removed, but its pretty minor and its not cancer which is all i really care about.

---

Last night me, evan, jared, bryan, kat, sal, val, and wendy (sals friend) went to a party at Abe's house. Most everyone left after 20 min since it was hot and the "band" was pretty bad, but me and some others stayed until 1ish.

Yesterday my sister was visiting new paltz so i hung out with her and some of her friends. Went to Mcgillycuddys and got irish nachos, which is like, inifinity times better than anything i've eaten in a while. Im on a severe budget since my job situation continues to suck- the anthropologist decided he didn't need as much help as he originally thought so he let me go. Right now i'm waiting on target to call me back and i'm going to apply to a few more places in town.

That's it for right now.

-Dan

They pick me up when I'm feeling blue

10:44am 29/06/2008

mood:

energetic

music: Lynyrd Skynyrd::Sweet Home Alabama

That party was exactly right. That party was insane. That party was one hundred percent what I needed and what I will be experiencing this summer. That party was Zeckie, Alex, Mickey, Charlie. That party was blown to the heavens. Life.

Also, Spain is going to win Germany today. That's my bet. Maybe it's the wrong one. Germany is a great team, but I'm counting on Spain.

Whatever, I hope there's a party like that every day for the rest of my life, and I really hope that I see those kids again.

surrrrrvey

ihategibson

11:07pm 28/06/2008

Question #1: Are you a morning or night person?
night
Question #2: Which do you prefer, sweet or salty foods?
sweet
Question #3: Ninjas or pirates?
ninjas...ke-ya!
Question #4: Ninjas vs pirates, discuss.
tough to call...i think they'd both destroy each other...then again, captain jack just keeps coming back these days
Question #5: Autobots or Decepticons?
autobots!
Question #6: What was your favorite childhood television program?
power rangers...it was always morphin' time in my den
Question #7: Are you a collector of anything?
not really
Question #8: If you could be any animal, what would you be?
not sure...maybe a dolphin, they're really smart and everyone loves them
Question #9: If you could have any superpower, what would it be?
oh god...i dont think i can pick one
Question #10: What is usually your first thought when you wake up?
shit, work again....or....mmm food
Question #11: What do you usually think about right before falling asleep?
lets see what crazy dream i have this time...
Question #12: What's your favorite color?
blue
Question #13: What's your favorite animal?
poodle-bijon fries' are nice...
Question #14: Do you believe in extraterrestrials or life on other planets?
definitley, for both
Question #15: Do you believe in ghosts?
yes
Question #16: Ever been addicted to a video/computer game? Which one(s)?
video game...either tony hawk or one of the wwe games
Question #17: You're given 1 million dollars, what do you spend it on?
i'd probably travel
Question #18: Have any bad habits?
singing/burping in public, picking my nose, singing/burping while picking my nose
Question #19: Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy?
ball scratching
Question #20: List 3 of your best personality traits:
funny, honest, trustworthy
Question #21: List 3 of your worst personality traits:
judgmental, impatient, too nice
Question #22: Have any celebrity crushes?
where do i begin...
Question #23: List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself:
i wish i could be more confident
Question #24: Any tattoos or piercings?
nope
Question #25: What's the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
eyes
Question #26: What personality traits do you look for in a partner?
easy going, accepting, sense of humor
Question #27: What personality traits do you dislike in other people?
polite, judgmental, fake
Question #28: Are you mostly a clean or messy person?Do you see yourself getting married in the next 5 years?
next 5 yrs? doubtful
Question #29: Are you mostly a clean or messy person?
mostly clean i think
Question #30: If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
tough...england, maybe austrailia...
Question #31: If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would you go?
italy
Question #32: List 5 goals on your life's to-do list:
travel, stay healthy, have a family, have an enjoyable job, get my ass in a band
Question #33: Name 1 regret you have:
waiting too long to go to new paltz
Question #34: Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid:
not having to worry about what anyone else thinks of you
Question #35: Name 1 thing you love about being an adult:
probably nothing...maybe having my own money or something like that
Question #36: What's your favorite song of the moment?
surfing with the alien, teach your children
Question #37: What's your favorite song of all time?
5. comfortaly numb 4. whiskey in the jar 3. screaming for vebngeance 2. more than a feeling 1. jumpin' jack flash
Question #38: What's your favorite thing to do on a Saturday night?
be with friends
Question #39: What's your favorite thing to do on a Sunday afternoon?
nothing
Question #40: Have any hidden talents?
i can pull my leg behind my head, if that counts
Question #41: You're about to walk the green mile, what do you have as your last meal?
pasta with some sort of chicken, vodka sauce or shrimp concoction
Question #42: What would be your dream job?
professional musician
Question #43: Which would you rather have, 100 million dollars or true love?
true love
Question #44: If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be?
to have some sort of a super power, to be a career musician, and to have a great family
Question #45: Ever wish you were born the opposite sex? If so, why?
no! i thank god every day that im a dude
Question #46: Name 1 thing not many people know about you:
ive never been high
Question #47: If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to?
i love my name...but if i had to change it...maybe steve because people always call me it by mistake
Question #48: Do you believe in the afterlife?
yea...it makes death not seem so bad..seriously
Question #49: On the topic of abortion, how do you feel about cookies?
delicious...unless they're loaded with peanuts

(5 Straight-Edge Kids | Don't Smoke Pot)

Harmonica voices

10:23am 28/06/2008

mood:

mellow

music: Matt Costa::Never Looking Back

I've had this journal for a while now. I've written some crazy shit in here. I've been a stupid little girl and written about it, I've matured and grown up and written about it. Well yesterday I was sitting on the train and thinking about how much I love train rides. There were three people in the car, including myself. It was beautiful, and was as if the energy was running through us and we were all thinking the same thing. I went to the concert yesterday even though I didn't really want to. Good thing I did. I missed Kyle dearly. I missed smoking weed with anyone besides the usual suspects. My life is so much freer than I thought it was back in the day. I'm happy to be able to say that.

Anyway, college is starting in a surprising 53 days and orientation is in a simple 30. This means that time is going to pass quickly. However, there is so much that I can fit into 53 days. 53 days is enough to do more than I could ever imagine or even think about. In the next week, I will have more experiences than I have had in the past month. Is it true? I guess I'll find out. That's what's wonderful.

I have a picture of New Paltz as my desktop background. Every time I power up my computer, I smile.

Kyle wants to trip acid with me because he says that he's heard I'm a great tripper.
I don't know if I will ever be the same person I was. I wonder if I'll die earlier than I should. I think that I am in love with being so young.

Also, Personal Jesus by Johnny Cash:

Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone who cares

Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone who's there

Feeling unknown and you're all alone,
flesh and bone by the telephone,
lift up the receiver,
i'll make you a believer

Take second best,
put me to the test,
things on your chest,
you need to confess,
i will deliver,
you know i'm a forgiver

Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith

Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone who cares

Your own, personal, Jesus
someone to hear your prayers,
someone to care

Feeling unknown and you're all alone,
flesh and bone by the telephone,
lift up the receiver,
i'll make you a believer
i will deliver, you know i'm a forgiver

Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith

no subject

04:27pm 27/06/2008

mood:

calm

so i dont have cat scratch fever luckily
but i somehow managed to get an ear infection in both ears
swimmers ear they called it.. even tho i havent been swimming in a VERY long time
and apparently ive been grinding my teeth in my sleep from the pain
which led to my jaw locking
awesome
but im just glad it was that and not something worse
so now im going to take more pain pills
put my steroid ear drops in
take my antibiotic
eat a pudding cup
and go back to sleep for awhile

(4 Straight-Edge Kids | Don't Smoke Pot)

no subject

03:01pm 27/06/2008

Leaving for PA with the kids in about half an hour.
So excited!

there wont be nothin but big ol hearts a dancin in our eyes

01:12pm 27/06/2008

mood:

drugged

so i've lost 5 lbs in the past couple days from not being able to eat
and im going to an ear nose and throat dr in a little bit
all ive been doing is sleeping to escape the pain
and ive been in a haze from the pain meds they put me on
but having gus back makes everything much better
and the kittens always put a smile on my face
it sucks that i had to call in for today and tomorrow
but at least my mood hasnt fallen much
:0]

no subject

breath_smile

10:07am 27/06/2008

it's all happening!
im pretending to pack and we leave early tomorrow.
im really excited, kinda scared, kinda idk what.

russia lost 3:0 yesterday to spain :[
we all went to sashkas to watch the game and then egor drove me to jons where we also pretended to pack.
we are a very poorly organized couple.

no subject

freeatnet

12:05pm 27/06/2008

mood:

tired

music: Pink Floyd – Have a Cigar

Come in here, Dear boy, have a cigar.
You're gonna go far,
You're gonna fly high,
You're never gonna die,
You're gonna make it, if you try;
Pink Floyd – Have a Cigar

И впрямь. Мы всюду пройдем, мы никогда не умрем.

no subject

09:24pm 26/06/2008

mood:

indescribable

i am so so happy to have gus back
he is such an incredible doggie
and he even learned how to use the stairs today!
:D

and in other news
i have had a terrible ear infection for the past few days that made my jaw have tremendous amounts of pain
and now my other ear is infected and all the pain has gotten worse
my dr doesnt know what to do with me
so she is sending me to a specialist tomorrow
my mom thinks i may have cat scratch fever from emi because she is a carrier
and if thats true then we would have to put her down
and i would be heartbroken
my mom wants to put her down at the end of the summer anyway because her disease is hurting her so much
thats going be so incredibly hard.
she is ALWAYS with me.. for the past 9 years she has slept by my side every night
and when i went through lots of time having no friends, she has always been there
it sounds so cheesy but im so attached to her
but im not going to think about that now and just enjoy all the time i have with her

hopefully i wont be in pain soon. i havent been able to eat, talk, or hear right for the past few days.
and i have to call into work tomorrow which i HATE doing because i love my job and the people i work with
and getting payed is always a plus haha

we'll just have to wait and see i suppose.

Soldiers on the front line

05:37pm 26/06/2008

mood:

amused

music: Eminem::Toy Soldiers

Beautiful. Life is beautiful. I'm okay with being a crazy kid this summer. It's been happening so far and has being suiting me well. Although I get "am I going to die?" scares almost once a week, it's worth it. My life is mine, and it is wonderful.

I am still exhausted from yesterday. Good thing I didn't take any sticks before my graduation this morning, which was a complete waste of time. I almost fell asleep. I was able to buy my new gauge though, which means I'll be heading to a six sometime next week. I've been wearing the smaller one for too long since it fell out.

Whatever, this summer is going to be so wild. I hope I don't cause any pain.

guys can vent too

ihategibson

02:35pm 26/06/2008

mood:

sleepy

music: see journal entry

so yesterday i was assigned to help move this giant wooden shelf thingy from one room to another. it was this old, rickety, wooden shelf, about 7 feet tall. one of my co-workers and i take each side and attempt to push it out the door, but it was too tall to fit. so we decide to tilt it a bit, so it can fit through the doorway. i start to pull while he pushes, and the thing shakes a bit. no big deal. we repeat the process again, and the thing completely collapses on to us. the sides fall off, the shelves fall off, the top falls off, it was fucking epic. i couldnt stop laughing because it seems like the type of thing to happen in a mel brooks movie, two kids trying to move something only to have it crumble to pieces the second it budges. so as you can tell, work is going alright, except for a little frustration today (get ready for some world class jew-complaining). i was told to come to the other elementary school in the district today because they needed extra help moving some stuff to the middle school, which is right next door. just some chairs, desks, stuff like that. the work a little tiring and aggravating, but it wasnt that bad because the rest of the day we didnt have much to do. i might as well get to why I'm frustrated, which is due to the people i was working with. some of the kids who work at this elementary school (as opposed to the one i was previously assigned to) are pretty young, like freshman in college i think. the guys i was working with previously were 23 and 20, but these other kids are right out of high school. and let me tell you. they are tools. remember the typical A-team from high school, those trendy fucks who loved to make fun at anyone not as athletically gifted or good looking as them? i'm not one to judge, but this was the impression i got from these guys. no one really made fun of me at all, but they did it to some other guys i worked with and it really pissed me off. it just makes me remember why i hated high school so much. i just got that impression from them, that they didnt want to associate with anyone ''below'' them. they werent up front mean, but they just reminded me of those fucking high school kids that i hate hate hated so much. stupid little kids, with their god damn cliques. they kind of made me sick. anyway, aside from that little outburst, life is going okay. im turning into an old man who doesnt have the strength to go out with his friends at night on a weekday which sucks, but i think i'll get used to it. in other news, i think id like to announce that i think the worst mistake ive ever made was telling she-who-inspired-my-username about the brown. Between IMs, bumper stickers, and random journal posts all entailing the nature of a certain someone's feces', i think i awakened an unknown obsession with shit that even she didnt know existed. i got my paycheck from my previous carny job which is good, 282 dollars for three days of work sounds fine to me. the guy i like won the ultimate fighter...and...um...thats it. as ive told everyone a million times already, i miss u all and i think i'll slit my wrists if i dont see u guys soon. as of now, i can meet up with people for the rush show, and hopefully we can make a city reunion or something so i can satisfy my separation anxiety. oh wait, that's just gas. im really glad to know everyone is doing ok...keep up the IMs : )

musha-ma ring dema doo dema da

tootles!

(3 Straight-Edge Kids | Don't Smoke Pot)

no subject

01:26am 26/06/2008

Northern Lights.
I dare any of you to try dealing with these headaches.
Or sleeping with them.
I'm not sleeping at all anymore.

*Congrats to Jesse who is getting married. Wishing only the best.

no subject

11:29pm 25/06/2008

im sitting in evans house using his internet because i have to write a paper due tomorrow.

today we played mini golf etc.

i regret to inform you guys that 60 main will "very likely" go out of business in july. so yea. thats the end of that.

a big giant huge show will not happen, at least at this venue.

going to actually write my paper now.

-Dan

no subject

03:05pm 25/06/2008

Oh my god, I didn't think I could actually be walking right now. Wtf. Wow.

Garage Sale on west center st new paltz this sat and sun

sunynewpaltz - (misfitmanda)

01:24pm 25/06/2008

I will be selling at a two-house yard sale on West Center St. on Sat and Sun June 28th and 29th from 10am- 5pm.
Clothes, books, candles, candle holders, shoes, belts decorative type stuff, and more.

I will also be selling some regular garage sale stuff as well as my handmade stuff.
(its the dead end side of center st not the middle school side - let me know if you need directions)

Rosendale Street Fest on Sat July 19th 12pm - 10pm and Sun. July 20th. 12pm - 6pm Its free!
Lots of bands performing
http://www.rosendalestreetfestival.com/
I will be vending my wares there so come and check it out!

Garage Sale on West Center St New Paltz this Sat and Sun!

newpaltzjunkies - (misfitmanda)

01:20pm 25/06/2008

no subject

09:50am 25/06/2008

mood:

ecstatic

ANIMAL CONTROL HAS GUSSSS!!!!!!!!
i am so happy and relieved right now
i cannot wait to get him back home

no subject

01:25am 25/06/2008

After all those years of living in fear
I stopped worrying about the bomb or the other shoe dropping
After all those years worried for my life
I started to enjoy myself, I started to enjoy myself
And the only ones who have suffered from it
Have been the creditors and the landlords
And you know what? Fuck them
If they want an apology they can have it
For any inconvenience I might have caused
But the butterflies in my stomach have flown up through my throat
And learned to love the open air, the open air
Sorry guys, sit down and have a drink, but I’m not sorry

Glossolalia

06:56pm 24/06/2008

take me down, to the river...

today me and jared transported a desk from the salvation army to our house. im trying to think of a way to explain how we moved it, but i cant really describe it. basically we had the desk leaning on the inside of my trunk, while one of us carried the back of it while walking behind the car whilst it was moving. im aware this dosent make any sense, maybe jared can figure out a way to explain it. suffice it to say, it was hilarious yet effective.

i went to the doctor this morning and it turns out i have high blood pressure. So I have to eat less salt, excersize more, and probably go on a medication. Its lame.

Jon is mixing the album over the next few days so thatll be done pretty soon. Also he was takling to me about doing something on the July 12 show instead of cancelling it, so maybe that will happen.

Hung out at bryan's last night. Kat is apparently staying here for a while so we all ate dinner and watched "i love the millenium."

I got two jobs. I'm going to be working for an anthropologist as a research assistant. His thesis is that religiosity is an evolutionary advantage because it decreases stress (or something along those lines). So part of my job is going to be going to church services and soliciting saliva samples so that we can analyze them for stress hormones. I'm meeting with him tommorow to talk about it. Its pretty much a perfect job and I couldn't really ask for any more. And it pays 15$/hr which will help me explore food groups other than pasta, cereal and soup.

My other job is target. and boy am i excited. Im going for an interview on thursday. I dont know what my job is yet, i think thats something im figuring out on thursday.

My housemate jason was moving in all day, hes going to be sticking around until thursday. Tonight me and jared are going over bryans to watch The Goonies.

And the people upstairs from me are moving out, so my internet is now really actually gone. I'm using school computers for a few weeks. Its lame.

Im gunna do some reading than go to bryans. Speaking of which I read 150 or so pages of Darwin's Dangerous Idea and I wasn't really feelin it. It is philosophy of biology which a lot stuff i either don't understand or don't care about. I havent decided what im going to start reading next but maybe something relevant to my research job.

Also me and Dr. Geher have a project going right now about attitudes towards sex differences. Something else i have to work on.

(6 Straight-Edge Kids | Don't Smoke Pot)

no subject

01:55pm 24/06/2008

still no sign of gus. we have taken long long walks and called for him the whole time.
we called the aspca, animal control, the paper, animal shelter and all the people we could think of around here
i made signs that im going to put up everywhere
and maybe my tears will stop soon
i dont know why i became so attached to this dog
but i miss him so much and i really hope we find him.
alive.

no subject

cgemmary

12:49am 24/06/2008

mood:

blank

its been almost a week since my last post, and not much has changed. In fact, not much ever changes. My life is my job, which includes fascinating events such as : a shortage of the napkins used to roll silverware..the smaller napkins just don't have the same results, certain people over tip me cause they're too drunk/stoned to read their bill I guess, no matter what day it is we're always out of rice..???, this really weird guy who works grill with his chin pierced will not stop hitting on me, the really strange girl who works as a server will not stop telling me her life-story, one of the computers is down, the huge walk-in freezer is the scariest place I've ever known, kids have figured out how to strategically place food in the cushions of the benches..so it makes clean-up take much longer than anticipated, it is my firm belief that someone at the restaurant is stealing all the spoons, and if I have to sing the Friendly's birthday song one more time this week.....I'm....gonna.....scream

...so thats it. Thats whats new with me..pretty sad. I did however get one break from work last week and I went to a Yankee game with my dad. It was really fun. Just being in the city was awesome. Getting out and away from the same every-day routine was greatly needed. And I have plans to see my friends from home again soon, so I'm looking forward to that. Speaking of which, we should all plan a city trip, or just a visit for the summerrr, cause I miss you guys. I hope you are all doing well :)

(5 Straight-Edge Kids | Don't Smoke Pot)

no subject

yourlilange

12:43am 24/06/2008

mood:

exhausted

music: pounding of my head

so im exhausted and going to bed but i wanted to mention a couple of things recently happening in my life

1) i bought my dad a top of the line wireless router for fathers day bcz we had been talking about getting the network in my house working again...and so i installed it and it works beautifully...5 bars of signal strength...thank you netgear and indian "richard" who helped set that up :)

2) 2 weeks of work down and onto week three...i get PAID this week!!!!

3) friday i had my friends party...it was a little awkward since all my friends havent seen or spoken to each other in a while and in addition we were the minority bcz he has all these new work friends who were there and largely outnumber us yet they were pretty awesome and fun. oh and marin showed up with his indian gf who wasnt wearing my neckace by the way...hmmmmmmmmm at any rate he ignored me and i followed in his footsteps

4) jeff's on saturday was interesting...his fam was family-ish as usual and his home friends were the same...there was kings and screw your neighbor in addition to beer pong and amazing food and desert.

5) after spending the night at jeffs, i finally got to sleep in a little and then ordered rock band for the wii on best buy.com for in store pick up...picked it up, went back to jeffs, set it up and played a little. then i went home earlier than usual bcz i spent the night and bcz i had work today...came home and played a little rock band here which my dad made an attempt at haha

6) work today...did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...so bored shitless is not even fair to get paid for this...its not even enjoyable, the time passes so slowly. left early, got home and played rock band with the sister and friend and then some wario ware...now its bed time

thats my life recently and im glad to hear about everyone elses and all the fun awesome things they're doing...wish we could be doing them together....let's work on that people!!!! u know who's on top of that shit...KRISTINA!!!! get on this with me...we'll make this happen!!! :)

no subject

10:04pm 23/06/2008

mood:

worried

gus is missing and i am so upset.
and the baby bunny passed away this morning.
i really hope gus is ok. i hunted for him for sooo long around the property and we told all the neighbors.
i feel like im going to have a nervous breakdown not knowing if he is alright.

in other news
after this semester at new paltz i am going to start doing veterinary studies.
i have thought about it long and hard
and i have decided that i really REALLY want to be a vet.
i know its going to be a pain to switch over, and i'll probably have to transfer schools
but this is something i am willing to dedicate the rest of my life to
i was never very happy being an art major and i never even wanted it as my major to begin with
i just kind of fell into it as the easy way out
but now i have realized what my calling is
and im really excited about it.

im so worried about gus

no subject

08:41pm 23/06/2008

Sister?
Could it be?

5 minutos

used_ryuichi

04:35pm 23/06/2008

Im in Colombia
And Ive got 5 minutes left on the internet.

Im having the worst period ever. GREAT.
Sorry if thats too much info.

I have no idea how to put in some characters so Im just not using them.
AHHH
Ive got to go now.
I love it here but I cannot wait to go home and take a civilized shower =P
yes! I figured one out.

no subject

09:47pm 22/06/2008

mood:

giddy

today was eventful
i gained 7 new family members
a mama kitty, four kittens, and a baby bunny
i love animals so so SOOO much
every single one means so much to me
its really crazy. i talk to all of them, play with them, feed them, and nurture them
and my life feels complete

so my farm family now includes:
9 cats, 6 horses, 4 dogs, 2 goats, 1 bunny, and 1 fish
:0]
sometimes country life is so amazing